What i have to say is......

You'll surely forget that the sadness heaped on your shoulders is embraced by the hands of a shooting star.

Jumping out the usual exit.
Matching the flow of passers-by, everyday..
Faint lights shines in town just after the rain, looking up to the sky, rainy day..
Rain stops, avoiding cars to you on the run, chasing after the trace of rainbow, grooving.

Time flows, oh my, hugging the feelings.

From the palm of your hand, fancy flutters to the sky, holding small courage i run to tomorrow.

I say yes! Something that you, who i could meet by crossing time. The love that makes future happen will be there.

I let myself reset with a sigh, days feeling like they're in an infinite loop. Even if "facing the right, now the left," is a detour

From Reborn

House got BANGED!

Sigh..

When i got home, auntie said:

Auntie : hey nath, we got jackpot!
Me : oh really? how much!
Auntie : about few mil
Me : woah! congratulation!
Auntie : yea...u too!

As i walk in the house, i saw the the glass fragments was all around the place which are connected to the garden and the master bed room, my room, china man's room and manson's room was in total mess!

ME : WADDA FUXK?

They got my money, and the most heartache part, the necklace that i bought during valentines day specially for my girl who we both missed out our 1st valentines day.

Sigh,
That necklace, i was planning to give her when i get back to malaysia.
That necklace means so much to me because i bought it during the valentines day.
That necklace, i carefully chose the best necklace to fit the diamond.

And
Thats the last of that pattern, its very pretty, not too big and not too small, length of that necklace was adjusted carefully just for her, it fits her well together with the diamond when i imagine she is wearing it.

Sorry, another lousy surprise of mine..

Why cow cant fly?!

Damn, why cant cow fly!? I wish i have a flying cow so i can sabotage that bitch office!

Flying cow landing on her will be a good idea! Yea, u go cow!! Land on that white lady nice and flat! Talk about flat, she have a horrible airport which a plane can slip when its landing! Or perhaps a plane will never land there!
*u know what i mean about the airport thing, yea, thats right...ma fei gei chiong lo!*
*gulp, dont dare to think much about it cause it's making me sick*

Anyway why cant she be nice? But maybe i think being nice are too much for her to do. Well, the truth is, 99.9999999999999% people from that college hates her!
*except other lecturers and workers over there as she is very good at SHOE POLISHING!*

She Fxxking accused me in copying work! Damn her alright? Talked things like plagiarisms or identical work and shit just fxxking annoys me!

She didnt question me about it and went straight to my agent and my dad through email!

Fxxk her! She sent me an email and i replied her but yet she sent me another copy of that letter to my house! I CAN FxxKING READ A-B-C 1-2-3 AND ENGLISH ALRIGHT? THATS LIKE DISCRIMINATION!

Sigh, that's ok for me cause i am used to it! But my poor baby was worrying sick about me and went completely down after she listened to my story.

She, my girl, keep on persuading me to sleep early as shes damn worried about me can die.

Baby i love you =3

Baby, although sometimes u may feel lonely or insecure, but i swear i am trying my best to fill up the gap between us.

Its hard to have a long distance relationship. But baby, you are doing it well and i am proud of you, and i am proud of myself cause i have found a considerate girlfriend who loves me like mad! <3

Bare this in mind ladies and gentlemen that true loves never die!
*Baby are you familiar with that sentence and can you recall that back?? =3

Ill be expecting you to answer me when i call kayyyyy? *it means that u read my blog* =P

Hungry..

Its 2.25am now, and im hungryyyyy!!

lol, i ate my dinner, but im still hungry, why am i hungry? well, that i dont know, mayb i miss my junkfood..thats why~

hmm, i have this habit of, when im doing something on my desk, theres gonna be like M&M and the SMITHS CHIPS beside me so i can munch them at all times! WWEEE!!!! SIMPLY irresistable!!! =P *but thats the past when i, nick and denise do junkfood restock once a week*

i didnt lay my hands on junkfood since i came back from malaysia though.

wait.......
only once, thats when im in complete eccentric state that craving for it.
Anyway that china man helped me to solve this problem by giving me one of his fav's snack, THE SMITHS!

when i was munching chips, i thanked god for sending him to help me with that problem..LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway he told me that he dont like junkfoods, but me...being persistent on teaching him how to eat...soon he became just like me, a snack addict!! WUAHAHAHA!

hey hey, look at the bright side, at least im teaching him not to be that boring kay?

-- finally --
hmm, i dont want to mention about my flight and my study plan because it was a mess
and im confused, so i seek for ma baby help~ =P

Thank you for everything baby~ <3

Just imagine the girl who tell me all the time that "SLEEPING IS ESSENTIAL, NO SLEEP NO KISS!" thingy hooked up with me whole night!!! weee! WORK THAT OUT YO! =D

Anyway baby...U spent your time talking with me whole night instead of sleeping, so imagine of THAT SACRIFICING ON ME!!!!! *im truly touched...LOLLL* <3

Anyway, i miss sushi, i want to eat sushi now...
I miss my parent, my gramp, my siblings, my mum's car *can be considered as mine*, my dad's car *never consider me driving it cuz my dad will kill me*, and last but not least, SHE who miss me twice as much as i miss HER...just love her! <3

Ops, 3.09am now, hmmm, well, if ma baby read this blog, she gonna kill me...sigh...

-- TO MA BABY -- <3

baby...
i am SOOOOO sorry that i didnt call because of insufficient credit.
SAYANG BACK KAY??????? =) <3 you!

-- END --

Im sorry, but pls do this with me..

I felt so guilty from yesterday till now, although i don't know why.

Jealousy, selfish, narrow-minded, cry baby and etc which now u may think im a loser. Its ok and normal for you to think that way because i nvr felt these before.

Pathetic as always, continuous questions from me always annoys you and perhaps you are right, i have to learn to shut up.

I thought by confessing to you might be better cause of no secrets between loving couples will be perfect, thats y i asked a lot of things from you. Which now proven to you that im stupid and childish.

U may lost your respect to me but that doesn't change the fact that who am i to you and who we are now.

I am learning to share my thoughts, and secrets with you although i know it may disgust you. I know these will happen, but i want to tell you that i love you, so i don't want to hide anything from you.

I don't know how to say this, but i cant do this alone, i need you to help me to forget our past and to start a new life with me. I want you to love me, i want you to understand my stupidity, idiotic questions, pathetic thoughts and narrow-minded thoughts.

Its been bothering me since i told you about my secrets. Instead of appreciating how true am i to you, u felt disgusted and completely lost all your respects to me. But thats ok, i don't mind...

When i feel lonely, heartache, sad, pressure over my works, worries about you and how am i going to face this alone, i felt completely torn apart and confused.

Although i know my injured arm and shoulder are nothing compared to your sadness and hatred, but ive been punishing myself for being childish and stupid.

But please, its bothering me, im not happy with it and i cant sleep for the whole night including no appetite to eat.

I really hope that u can smile back at me and say, "its okay, i forgive you". Or not, perhaps you are right, im too childish to think that its possible for you to say. But i just want you to know that, at least i have passed myself, and my COURAGE to tell you the truth.

From the bottom of my heart,
I LOVE YOU..

Confessions

Its been awhile since i blog.

Nothing much, but i have to admit that I'm kinda lazy to do anything.
Well, i felt bored, so i came out an idea on entertaining myself by confessing! LOLL!

OK, here i go..

1. I force myself to drink all the time although i hate to drink.

I cant see the reason why people likes to drink as beer taste bitter and it upset
your tummy all the time. I often heard people saying that guys who can drink are
opposed to cool, but hey, u look even hotter after your belly comes out, women
would certainly enjoy sleeping on your tummy like a pillow.

2. I'm not addicted to smoking, but i smoke. *i know i know, doesn't make sense aye?*

Although i know smoking are bad but hey, I'm 19, and i can assure you that im not
addicted to it. Reason one, i don't buy cigarette, and i don't crave for it.
I only smoke when my friend have cigarette.

3. I like games, especially online games.

Its a waste of time playing games but i can't find other things to entertain
myself other than that unless i am in Malaysia.

4. I'm addicted to snooker although I'm not good at it

Snooker are fun and addictive, thats what i think. No other comments other than
that, but it seems to me that my dad don't like me playing it although he
allows me to.

5. I'm addicted to "YOU"! <3 <3 <3 <3 You

Yes I'm addicted to you, I'm crazy on you, i crave for you!
Your lips are addictive.
Your eyes electrifies me all the time.
You voice, are so beautiful.
Your look, simply irresistable.
Your expressions, your emotions, it's on my mind.
Your smile melts my heart all the time!
Love that you gave me, it will be indelible.. <3
Although you are far away from me, but i will preserve this relationship! <3
Your faith in me, and us, will not be forgotten! <3

I confessed everything to you because i love you, and i don't want to hide anything
from my dearest.

I miss you baby..
and
I love you dearly..

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Happy belated valentines day to all of you xD

shes my new life <3

I kinda regret when i have the chance to blog back in malaysia, cause there's so many things happened that i should have blogged it.

Well, things that i can rmbr was, my accident, snooker, *smoking and drinking* -but im not addicted to it-, working, nick's visit and cny.

oh oh oh, i miss nick...lol!!! NO IM NOT A GAY OKAYYYY?!!!! =P

But one thing, one and only thing that i did'nt put in that *RMBR list* Its you..it will be indelible in my heart...forever =)

I cant connect to the internet till now...cause my land lady and i agreed on changing to new broadband company which the internet has been dead for 2 days... *luckily i was'nt there for the past few days if not i would have been dead* LOL...!!

Sigh, i miss her...very much, i cant sleep, no appetite to eat and altho im not aware that im sick till i got high fever...i noticed that shes more important that anything...or should i say, everything.

Before i wanted to unload my bag, i dont actually feels like doing it and i dont know why, maybe im too tired, but then suddenly i thought of the teddy that she gave me, so i immediately took it out from my bag while leaving those clothing hanging around my room, yea, turned out to be a messy room then..

That time, i hugged it tightly, and cried. Well, i would'nt mind if u thought imma baby, but then that time i miss her so so much. I nvr felt that much of pain before till i have the chance to call her using my house mate's phone. *cause mine was screwed up*

Im actually satisfied of what i have now, cause shes everything that i ever wanted, everything that i need, everything that i could have ever imagined, everything....

Oh and one thing, the internet was a mess, i wanted a new crazy blazing fast internet connection speed with a monster look but not a *lousy internet that does'nt work!! well it works, but it cuts down automatically every 5 minutes, or even worse @.@*

Well, i wanted to expose here more about me and you, but i suppose you, and i would rather have it as secrets between us. =D *im smartttt ayeeeeeeeee?* xD

I love you dearly =) picture in my blog will be WA EH CHA BOH forever xD

------ S.K <3 P.L ---------

*oh yea, finally internet is working now -____-"*