Tuesday, September 30, 2008

Just Random

Happy to be invited to a dinner which i never thought it would be that fun! I enjoyed it =)

Sigh..but i am Sad to say that i am leaving soon..and what is this kind of feeling which is pulling me down..make it stop..please..it is consuming me..

Ill miss you..

End..

Thursday, September 25, 2008

Sad la....

Cant sleep, care to ask what did i do when i was awake?
Well, that is random blog browsing.

I know i know, that is lame, but while i was browsing at people's blog, i found out mine was....pretty sad....

Readers : *You are such a Loser*
Me : Whaaaat?What did you said?

Well, i do believe that is how a normal people would think about me.
But ignore ignore! I am blogging these for my personal reason and if you want to know why do i still do sad blogging.

ASK ALLAH!

*pssst.....*
*psssstttttttt..........*
*jangan kacau ALLAH lah, dia sedang tidur la!!*
*apa la luuu ni!*

Deng....suddenly count back the days i have in ipoh before going back to perth, WTF ni...potong steam aje...

My feelings now? Uhm...i am feeling......sad, joyful, pathetic, excited and....wtf...why blended to become an impossible feeling one? Sigh, theres only one answer...that is i am feeling crazy now..yes...crazy..nono! no joke! LOL...

Ok la...while blogging this paragraph, i was msn by jia yee and nick le, haha, ok le, i guess ill stop here and have a chat with them before my sleep and a long day to work le..

Thats all folks!

Sunday, September 21, 2008

What a wonderful day!

Had a wonderful time today! =)

Pay leng's mother invited me for lunch as she cooked wan ton mee.
Have to say, it is good though. But i cant see the reason why they complained about the dish.

Well, the best part is, pay leng has decided to play badminton with me!! =D
*it was actually her mother and her sister who forced her to play badminton as she nvr exercise*

Oh well, played awhile with till she injured her finger.. =(
Actually i was the person who injured her finger...i am soooo sorry!!!!

Her sis played with us too, including my brother.
*have to admit, her younger sister is a better player than her!! Oh dear pls dont hurt me when u read this...*

Had dinner together in canning garden, was crowded with people but we managed to get the last table.
*how lucky we are to have a table aye??*

Sigh, but time flies....although she asked me not to count the remaining days in malaysia before leaving to perth, but its on my mind, i cant stop thinking about that....

Ill miss you....a lot.....

End

Memories =)


12 more days, yes...only 12 more days, i cant believe as weeks ago i started to blog about how excited i am to learn the truth that i am going back to malaysia.

How is it to feel like if your lover is far away from you yet both of you are fighting to hold this relationship? Well, yes it is a painful experience for me, but guess what, i soon learned to live with it as this will be the person who i will live with.




12 more days, i hate to acknowledge the truth that i am going back sooner than i thought. The only reason that i couldn't hold back my feeling is her.

How am i suppose to live without her?
The answer is Memories.

The time that we spent together, talked together and etc..

I want to get more pictures with her so i can remember every moment that we spent together. *though this is a women job...lol..*

Saturday, September 13, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY LOVE

Happy Birthday my love, may you have a joyful and blessed year!

I love you, cant wait to go out with you later~ =D

P/S I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH! HAPPY 16th BIRTHDAY!!! :)

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

The Ramifications

Yes sometimes love can be complex, but hey, everything got its price.

Just like my previous post, twisted feelings all blended to become love.
*If that make sense to you lol..*

3 more weeks...just 3 more weeks in here before i go back to aus.

Seriously i wouldnt come back to malaysia if shes not here.
*Well, that explain how much i love her ;P*

Anyway 3 more days will be her bd, yet she said its only a normal birthday for every year.
But no, for me, every year isnt the same, its like, u cant hav an 18th birthday when you are 19.

So yea...basically for me all birthday is an important day.

Happy birthday in advance my love. =)

Sunday, September 7, 2008

Twisted feeling

how issit like to hav these emotion and feelings together.

disappointed, upset, confused..

yet happiness take place too..

this is crazy, this twisted feeling...pls make it stop, its making me crazy.

End.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

The within

i seriously dont know what do i want now, or what am i thinking now.

moody, devastated, tired, pressure...and much more..

sigh....

end..

Wednesday, September 3, 2008

Things that cant be described.

Life is hard if you are in the situation where the future people and your family needs you.

I am the eldest son of my family, but what does that have to do with my life?
I practically have to spend my time in the factory or company while i dont know whether that is called holiday or not.

I am working for free, in the sense of helping around as a clerk in my dad's company.
I seriously dont mind about the salary and stuff because i know this is what i am doing for, i am doing for my better future.

But...time is getting shorter as i have to leave malaysia and my love behind..
I want to spend time with her and i know that she is desperate in needing me too.

What more can i do? I have tried my best to persuade my dad but still, he is a stubborn man who never listen and only stand on his own way.

I am not complaining about working and stuff, but at least give me some time for me with my love, as ill be leaving soon.

1 month wont be enough for me, as now we practically only meets each other not more than 3 times a week. Duplicate it 4 times that will only be 12 days.

I bought 2 books which is important and related to business stuff, and my dad was like, "why buy that wo, should this and that, bla bla bla, sigh...why does he have to shower me with cold water all the time...?"

Spending time alone without her is like sleeping on the bed where the soul begin to wandering around aimlessly.

My life is never interesting, but she lighted up my path and showed me whats fun and love are made of.

But strange, i dont feel warm, my heart wanders around all the time..i dont even know what am i doing now or what am i crapping here, all i know is the purpose of living isnt to be sad nor dull.

Dont be cool with me, cause i cant coupe with the temperature.

While replying, attention and the sense of love matters, lack of words and feelings inside a message will lead an opening sadness to the heart.

I choose my words carefully and will repeat myself if you want me to.
I apologize if the words i chose isnt relevant nor satisfy you.

Words may mean nothing to you, but your words to me affects my emotion and my feeling.

Sigh, what can i do or who can i ask for help when i am in need for help.

I need some one to talk to me, happily, cheerfully, considerate, caring, and the tone that i feel warm...all the time..

Although i am a HE, but that makes no sense that i should force myself to feel tough or happy when i am not.

I am still a human, who needs affection and tender from you like others do.

Partner shares the amazing bond together where not everyone will have.

As always, 3 words to you..my love...

ENd..

Tuesday, September 2, 2008

Everyday is adventurous

Went fishing on monday instead of going out with friends for badminton.

Wanted to play badminton badly so i tried to persuade my gramp but failed.

Well, i wouldnt say thats bad as fishing is quite fun too, though playing badminton would be better as most of my friends are leaving ipoh soon.

Well anyway, its quite adventurous though.
Not to mention about the smell in my gramp friend's car, it stinks to the max.

Imagine the smell of chicken, fish, vegetables and etc all mixed to become a pungent smell.
Thats not all, further more we are trapped inside that car with aircorns on, windows closed and trip from ipoh to sungai siput.
*Haha, my cousin seong min complained to me about the smell and he is a bit unlucky as he has to sit on the box because not enough of space..*

Yes...thats a nightmare, otherwise the whole trip would be nice.

Caught some fishes, big fishes!!
I was quite proud as i caught the most expensive and largest fish that anyone in that trip has ever did!!

Thumbs up! As that fish will cost about RM50 to RM 60+
If that fish is 1kg+, the price might be increased to RM100~150

After fishing, we planned to take the same muddy route and guess what, we got stuck in a big muddy hole.

Lucky for us, a worker helped us out with a crane pulling the car backwards and it turned out to be success.

OK, thats all for fishing then..

At night, i went out with my friends to have lok lok after having dinner with my sis and her friend in greentown old town kopitiam. *Threw her back home before going to lok lok with my cousin and my friends though* xD

A bit quarrel with the gf but we solved the problem out later though.
Yes yes, we *sa fa chiong - in cantonese* all the time. =P
Wouldnt say its her fault though, as her bf, i should spend more time with her and understand the loneliness that she is feeling inside, but still, i dont know why i still tends to freak out when i know she is going out, alone, with other guys.

Hey dont laugh at me, not funny!!! Dont tell me that non of u guys will feel that way!

Well...its late now...should complete this blog earlier but i procrastinated till 3.23am.. xD

*ill get alot of scolding from my gf for staying up late, for sure...* GULPSSS~

End

Monday, September 1, 2008

1 - sep - 2008

Its 12.30 am now, and i have to work on tuesday till the end of the month.
I might get some holidays from my dad as there might be some event happening..

But what i fear the most is, when i were to leave malaysia, what should i do and what will she do?
Yes, i trust her, its jz that, when she physically needs me to be by her side, how can i do that?
I am a pathetic bf who tends to call her only in distance.

I wanted to do all sort of things with her just to extend our bliss of happiness that being stored in our memories which will last forever.

I am tired, physically tired, sleepy and i am exhausted.
But this feeling i carrying, will never be tired and will continue to stand till the day i die.

I have to work, she have to study, i have to go back to aus and she have to miss me in malaysia.
Yes, distance relationship is hard, but i tend to keep this in mind, true love never dies.
You supported me when i am in trouble and still love me dearly when i was away.
You already gave me every single thing that you have, what more can i ask?

I ask for your love,
I ask for your time,
I ask for your tender,
I ask for your attention,
I ask for your relationship,

and you gave me all the things that i ever asked and ever thought of having it.

Smiles on your face while your eyes looking straight into my eyes, this feeling, its just too beautiful.

Do not forget the smile that i gave you kay?
Promise?

I love you..

End..