Works...and true love nvr die

Today, as usual like always, woke up early then went for breakfast with my family.

Wasnt expecting things to be that interesting till a human resource staff came in my desk and asked me to her room.

Well, i followed her to her room then, then she show me some papers..kinda like criminal records, and asked why am i always late to work and went home early, i kept quiet then she asked me to write down the reasons on the paper and need my head's singnature. WELL, including mine too..

But guess what, ma reason kinda gav her a shock, and how can i tell that? Simple, i saw her eyes reading continuosly as if shes talking with the wrong guy.

Well, i have 3 papers...

1st, Out With Mr.Simon Soon
2nd, Out With Mr.Simon Soon
3rd, Out With Mr.Chairman

its not selfboosting or some shitz, its actually the truth cuz i cant drive atm..
so my gramp and my dad was like fetching me in and out everytime.

And i got 3 or 4 appoinments in a week, thats y sometimes driver are needed to fetch me here and there to see my doctor about my body structure.....

I dont know what happened to me, my arms and shoulder..doesnt seems right when i lift them up. Sometimes when im freezing during in night, my body will cramp, my bone will like SO COLD that i can hardly breath.

Well, i dont care much about it tho, sigh..missing someone badly are worst than anything. Promises doesnt work so cruelty shows up and slap me hard.

Many ups and down lately, my chapter or life are written by my father, jesus..so i shall leave it for him to finish my ending.

Altho peoples who we met are only part of our chapter in our life, but as we turn the page, we can have new chapter with the same peoples but other story.

True love never die, true friend never go.
I love you, from the bottom of my heary, tears ive shed and joy that i had cried will always be there.

Dont give up on anything, sharing burden and finding true love is not easy, it needs alot of confidence and courage to commit it. Sacrifice will be made if its neccessary.

I hope i can see u soon before my time comes the end...i miss you...

Foot prints..

As we grow, those who walk along seems friendly.
But as time goes by,
soon we will notice they are not the right one..

...meaning fake
.. backstabbers
. using u as a tool

ive seen so much of this walk passed me in my life, they arent leaving footprints in my life, cuz i rubbed them off and left new track for my true friends

never learn to say i love u
cuz after u get addicted to it
u are as good as dead..

Song of the day 2

"Some tears never dry" and "So damaged"..both are my favourites!!!!
As i listen, i thought im singing instead of shayne ward~ xD
haha..how pathetic i might be? =)

Baby..
Some tears never dry

I used to think that we could work it out
I used to think that if we had some problems
I always thought if there was love around
No matter what, I always thought we'll solve it

Now everyday we're in an argument
It's like a circle that don't ever end
We're keeping secrets and we're telling lies
Whatever's wrong, let's make it right
Cause I...

I don't wanna say goodbye
Cause my heart couldn't take it
Baby, give me one more try
I don't wanna have to cry
Cause I know if we lose it
Baby, some tears never dry

Now what happened to our movie nights?
Girl, I thought that we would always have them
I used to make you laugh like all the time
Now I don't ever, we got a problem

Lately, you never ask about my day
And on the phone we got nothing to say
I get the feeling something's going on
Whatever's wrong, let's make it right
Cause I...

I don't wanna say goodbye
Cause my heart couldn't take it
Baby, give me one more try
I don't wanna have to cry
Cause I know if we lose it
Baby, some tears never dry

Let's talk about
A way that we can work it out
Girl, we're running outta time
And the thought of a break up
Is tearing me up inside

We can work it out
If we talk about it
We can show the world
That you and I are fighting for it
We'll get through the worst
And I know we'll make it
If we stay together
We'll make it through alive

I don't wanna say goodbye
Cause my heart couldn't take it
Baby, give me one more try
I don't wanna have to cry
Cause I know if we lose it
Baby, some tears never dry

Song of the day

this is the song which i keep on listening~
its sooooo meaningful...just <3 it

(Damaged) lyrics

Remember those photographs we took on the boat in Spain
I took them down and ripped them up and threw them all away
remember on the back of one you wrote we would meant to be
that doesn't really matter now cause u don't mean a thing to me

baby you shoulda told me tryna to find the start
I thought I was your only till you put me on the self and found somebody else

[Chorus]
I never thought that you would ever do that everything we had is gone
said you loved me said never leave me maybe you just heard your wrong
cause im damaged, im damaged, don't know what to do, baby
im damaged so, so damaged because of you

got rid of those clothes you left like you got rid of our dreams
don't wanna be reminded of all of the memories
I use to have the ticket stamp saved from our very first date
but that don't really matter now cause you threw our love away

baby you shoulda told me cause now im torn apart
thought that I was your only till you put me on the shelf and found sumbody else

[Chorus]

its almost like you were never here
I almost feel like I don't care cause I almost got rid of all the pain
the only thing I have left to say is how good you leave me so damaged

[Chorus]
Girl I never thought, never thought never thought that'd you'd do that everything is gone
(everything is gone)
you said you loved me said youd never leave me maybe I just heard you wrong (heard you wrong)

[Chorus till end]

Tomorrow will nvr be the same..

We are always one day older than yesterday,
Our death will be decided in our destiny,
Things that we have done will be our past..
It does'nt matter whether its right or wrong,
Because there's always reason behind every decision..

Dreams are wonderful, reality are harsh,
Dreams brought you to me,
But reality snatched it away..

Thats okay,

Because i will treasured the moment when i see u in my dream.
Your illusion haunt's my mind,
Im seeing you crying everytime,
I dont want this to happen..

So,
At last,
I chose to let go

Things i have said which hurted you aren't actually from my mind,
But things i have said will be the intention i mean..
My intention will be the only way,
That can guide u back to your happiness,
Hold on your hand and pull u up from that terrible fall,
And heal your terrible injuries

Soon you will forget my voice,
My presence,
My existence,
Then, once again u will stand..

But i will nvr forget things that we have done,
Let me carry this alone,
Its the least i can do after i have pushed u in that hole..
I can only say sorry for what i have done..

Things have changed,
Thoughts are made,
Choice are given,
And your decision will be the last of it..

If you have made up your mind,
Please dont look back,
Because i want u to move on...

This will be the last and only wish i want it from you,

Lost for real

im lost today, big time and for real.. *thoughts and direction*

i dont have enough of sleep, well thats nothing till i done my test, i failed. This is the 1st time i ever failed my test in that college. Lecturer was wondering how could this happen cause whole class pass. I dont know why and what happened, ive been studying days and stayed up late.

Such a loser aye? Well i am, in so many ways.

Another thing is, i over slept in the bus and ended up no where.
As i walk, i dont know where im going, as i missed 5 stop. I didnt care much, i just keep walking, keep walking, and keep walking. At that time i was very afraid, so unfortunate that my hp dried up, the only thing i could try is hitch hiking, but as u know, thats ridiculous.

While walking, i was thinking something else. *not gonna say it here*
I just felt that when people lost, they intend to fear something stupid, like, i can nvr go back, or i can nvr find my way home esspecially when u have a phone but u cant use it.

After sometime, finally i noticed one thing, i am lost in the neighbourhood.
Not gonna tell u how long it takes and how i got back, i dont want to talk about it.

So many things happened in such a short time.

Anyway, dont know why i dont feel like going back to malaysia, its odd, but yea...

WAO! SIMPLY ZA DOW!

I felt weird, as when i woke up, i was like...aw....fuk....college...must...get...up...lol! how pathetic i might be? =p

When i arrived to city, it seems to me that everyones getting in my way, so annoying when i wanna turn right, and another person turns left, uhm, then we stand, wait opposite to move, then when i wanna move, she move again...wtf! Thats for morning =p

Afternoon, same problem, but worse..i was wandering around the city and thinking "where the heck is the recharge centre"~ *for my buss one larh~*
Then i got so frustrated, so i decided to buy 2 bottle of water..1.5 litre, and a $70 dollar mobile recharge card..haha..dont ask me why, cuz i wanna use one larh~ =p

then after sometime, finally ive found the stupid centre! Well, yeah, ive missed the bus, not toooooo bad cuz another 20 minutes, theres a bus coming X_X"

Guess wad happens next, i won some shity price from that reload card company, b4 i started blogging, hahahahah!

That time, kinda like, owh fuk, china man, come in my room and see, ive won a price, then he was like..REALLY? AWW! U WILL WIN HANDPHONE THIS TIME~
Then i was like, nahhhhhhhh! i doubt its another 50 free msg, just like urs...sucky price~

Was actually saying this cuz to stay cool, haha...in my mind *FUK I WAN THE PHONE, FUK I WANT THAT PS2 CONSOLE! FUK THIS FUK THAT* when i look at the price..

My heart was racing rapidly when i was about to CLIK *JUMP IN THE POOL OF PRIZES*
After that, well, its 50..but not 50 msg la, pwease la, im not that cheap, my luck are way better than him, ive got a free $50 dollar reload card =p

Kinda like, FUK...NOT HANDPHONE MEH? AIYO..NO MORE PS2 console, NO MORE HP, NO MORE THIS AND THAT..then i look at the $50, then compare wif the china man's 50 free sms, aiya..also ok la...lol! eh, not trying to be mean, just FRIENDLY COMPARING! THATSSSS ALLL! ;P