Come closer to me, can u read my lips?
Look at my eyes, can u read the words i want to say?
Come beside me, can u feel how i feel while i am holding your hand on my chest?
Look at my tears, do u know how much it feels inside?
Come listen to my heart, do u know how fast it is beating?
Breath softly for a moment and listen to what my heart want to say..
Kiss me softly to show how tender you are..
Hug me tightly to show how much you love me..
Pinch me hard to tell me that this is called love and its real..
showing me that i am not dreaming..
Our 1st kiss will be unforgettable
Our 1st word will be unforgettable
Our 1st hug will be unforgettable
You are always tired with me, me..as a burden felt pathetic as ever
You are always sad with me, me..as the reason felt ashamed as ever
But you, forgiving me again and again, showed me how much u love me
But me, who took it for granted, showed how selfish i am
And you, didn't care how bad i am, showed how much u love me
But me, who acted like nothing, revealed my stupidity
Acting silly and stupid reflects my maturity..
Crying at the corner reflects how much i feel..
Love, is never easy, it is because that..
You need 2 person to make it happen
You need to have a lot of abilities to make it happen
You need to endure and being generous in forgiving
Now my heart aches as if a thousand dagger stabbed my heart.
Heartache hurts than anything in this world.
I cant breath now as if my heart are stopping my lungs from moving.
Make it stop..please, i am begging you.
Its torturing me like i never felt this torturous before.
I never put anything or anyone above you, because i love you.
I love you, thats all i can say, more than words, more than anything, more than my life.
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
as tedious as ever
My assignments and studies are disturbing my sleep lately.
Well, my assignment stressed me sometime but at last i managed to type over 2000 words to my lecturer on an impossible topic which he requested.
Presentation was ok as everyone loves my speech and the way i present, so yea, hard work jz paid off.
Done the 1st and 2nd exam which i jz managed to pass though.
Although i passed my test but dam, im worried about my last test which is the 3rd one cuz i know my lecturer wont be lenient this time.
Oh yea, lol...i forgot to mention about my new hairstyle, well, truly disaster, i thought bald would be nice but dam...it looks hilariously disturbing when i was looking at the mirror trying to get some normal pose with my new absolute fantastic hairstyle, or hairless-style. *well not hairless, just...dam shortttt can die*
I went clubbing once in aus. Well, i dont really like it though, but i have no choice as my friends asked me lots of time and i seriously dont know how many times ive declined them. Anyway, i suppose that will be my 1st and final time, cuz i hate it, dont wanna mention about it though.
i fking miss my old days especially my hair. While i usually swing my head with my long hair in front of my sis, which she mocked me and follow the way i swing are so funny till i can pinch her hard!! LOLZZZ!
My missing list
i miss my her *soooo sooooooooo much* :(
i miss my car *well, it belongs to my mum...but hey! it can be considered mine!* :P
i miss my house *alotttt alotttttt* :/
i miss my piano *finger itchy when i think of it* :(
i miss my guitar *almost forgotten all the notes, trying to learn back though* :X
i miss my family *yea, every single one of them* :)
i miss my friends *all of them, i soooo gonna hang out with them when i go back* :D
Well, my assignment stressed me sometime but at last i managed to type over 2000 words to my lecturer on an impossible topic which he requested.
Presentation was ok as everyone loves my speech and the way i present, so yea, hard work jz paid off.
Done the 1st and 2nd exam which i jz managed to pass though.
Although i passed my test but dam, im worried about my last test which is the 3rd one cuz i know my lecturer wont be lenient this time.
Oh yea, lol...i forgot to mention about my new hairstyle, well, truly disaster, i thought bald would be nice but dam...it looks hilariously disturbing when i was looking at the mirror trying to get some normal pose with my new absolute fantastic hairstyle, or hairless-style. *well not hairless, just...dam shortttt can die*
I went clubbing once in aus. Well, i dont really like it though, but i have no choice as my friends asked me lots of time and i seriously dont know how many times ive declined them. Anyway, i suppose that will be my 1st and final time, cuz i hate it, dont wanna mention about it though.
i fking miss my old days especially my hair. While i usually swing my head with my long hair in front of my sis, which she mocked me and follow the way i swing are so funny till i can pinch her hard!! LOLZZZ!
My missing list
i miss my her *soooo sooooooooo much* :(
i miss my car *well, it belongs to my mum...but hey! it can be considered mine!* :P
i miss my house *alotttt alotttttt* :/
i miss my piano *finger itchy when i think of it* :(
i miss my guitar *almost forgotten all the notes, trying to learn back though* :X
i miss my family *yea, every single one of them* :)
i miss my friends *all of them, i soooo gonna hang out with them when i go back* :D
Thursday, May 8, 2008
something new
Drawn in the night sky, the story connecting the stars, that the illusion of the yearning heart.
Ill be watching u like stars above glittering just for you.
When u wake up, ill be missing you while camouflage behind the clouds,
And..
the sunny sun which shines our love,
You tattoo my heart with your presence which i will never feel alone,
your scent which i remembered hallucinates as i thought of you.
Love requires lots of abilities instead of only a feeling.
It includes sadness, happiness, adrenaline rush and lots more.
It will just keep on cycle all the time cause its infinite.
Ill be watching u like stars above glittering just for you.
When u wake up, ill be missing you while camouflage behind the clouds,
And..
the sunny sun which shines our love,
You tattoo my heart with your presence which i will never feel alone,
your scent which i remembered hallucinates as i thought of you.
Love requires lots of abilities instead of only a feeling.
It includes sadness, happiness, adrenaline rush and lots more.
It will just keep on cycle all the time cause its infinite.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
What i have to say is......
You'll surely forget that the sadness heaped on your shoulders is embraced by the hands of a shooting star.
Jumping out the usual exit.
Matching the flow of passers-by, everyday..
Faint lights shines in town just after the rain, looking up to the sky, rainy day..
Rain stops, avoiding cars to you on the run, chasing after the trace of rainbow, grooving.
Time flows, oh my, hugging the feelings.
From the palm of your hand, fancy flutters to the sky, holding small courage i run to tomorrow.
I say yes! Something that you, who i could meet by crossing time. The love that makes future happen will be there.
I let myself reset with a sigh, days feeling like they're in an infinite loop. Even if "facing the right, now the left," is a detour
From Reborn
Jumping out the usual exit.
Matching the flow of passers-by, everyday..
Faint lights shines in town just after the rain, looking up to the sky, rainy day..
Rain stops, avoiding cars to you on the run, chasing after the trace of rainbow, grooving.
Time flows, oh my, hugging the feelings.
From the palm of your hand, fancy flutters to the sky, holding small courage i run to tomorrow.
I say yes! Something that you, who i could meet by crossing time. The love that makes future happen will be there.
I let myself reset with a sigh, days feeling like they're in an infinite loop. Even if "facing the right, now the left," is a detour
From Reborn
Friday, March 28, 2008
House got BANGED!
Sigh..
When i got home, auntie said:
Auntie : hey nath, we got jackpot!
Me : oh really? how much!
Auntie : about few mil
Me : woah! congratulation!
Auntie : yea...u too!
As i walk in the house, i saw the the glass fragments was all around the place which are connected to the garden and the master bed room, my room, china man's room and manson's room was in total mess!
ME : WADDA FUXK?
They got my money, and the most heartache part, the necklace that i bought during valentines day specially for my girl who we both missed out our 1st valentines day.
Sigh,
That necklace, i was planning to give her when i get back to malaysia.
That necklace means so much to me because i bought it during the valentines day.
That necklace, i carefully chose the best necklace to fit the diamond.
And
Thats the last of that pattern, its very pretty, not too big and not too small, length of that necklace was adjusted carefully just for her, it fits her well together with the diamond when i imagine she is wearing it.
Sorry, another lousy surprise of mine..
When i got home, auntie said:
Auntie : hey nath, we got jackpot!
Me : oh really? how much!
Auntie : about few mil
Me : woah! congratulation!
Auntie : yea...u too!
As i walk in the house, i saw the the glass fragments was all around the place which are connected to the garden and the master bed room, my room, china man's room and manson's room was in total mess!
ME : WADDA FUXK?
They got my money, and the most heartache part, the necklace that i bought during valentines day specially for my girl who we both missed out our 1st valentines day.
Sigh,
That necklace, i was planning to give her when i get back to malaysia.
That necklace means so much to me because i bought it during the valentines day.
That necklace, i carefully chose the best necklace to fit the diamond.
And
Thats the last of that pattern, its very pretty, not too big and not too small, length of that necklace was adjusted carefully just for her, it fits her well together with the diamond when i imagine she is wearing it.
Sorry, another lousy surprise of mine..
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Why cow cant fly?!
Damn, why cant cow fly!? I wish i have a flying cow so i can sabotage that bitch office!
Flying cow landing on her will be a good idea! Yea, u go cow!! Land on that white lady nice and flat! Talk about flat, she have a horrible airport which a plane can slip when its landing! Or perhaps a plane will never land there!
*u know what i mean about the airport thing, yea, thats right...ma fei gei chiong lo!*
*gulp, dont dare to think much about it cause it's making me sick*
Anyway why cant she be nice? But maybe i think being nice are too much for her to do. Well, the truth is, 99.9999999999999% people from that college hates her!
*except other lecturers and workers over there as she is very good at SHOE POLISHING!*
She Fxxking accused me in copying work! Damn her alright? Talked things like plagiarisms or identical work and shit just fxxking annoys me!
She didnt question me about it and went straight to my agent and my dad through email!
Fxxk her! She sent me an email and i replied her but yet she sent me another copy of that letter to my house! I CAN FxxKING READ A-B-C 1-2-3 AND ENGLISH ALRIGHT? THATS LIKE DISCRIMINATION!
Sigh, that's ok for me cause i am used to it! But my poor baby was worrying sick about me and went completely down after she listened to my story.
She, my girl, keep on persuading me to sleep early as shes damn worried about me can die.
Baby i love you =3
Baby, although sometimes u may feel lonely or insecure, but i swear i am trying my best to fill up the gap between us.
Its hard to have a long distance relationship. But baby, you are doing it well and i am proud of you, and i am proud of myself cause i have found a considerate girlfriend who loves me like mad! <3
Bare this in mind ladies and gentlemen that true loves never die!
*Baby are you familiar with that sentence and can you recall that back?? =3
Ill be expecting you to answer me when i call kayyyyy? *it means that u read my blog* =P
Flying cow landing on her will be a good idea! Yea, u go cow!! Land on that white lady nice and flat! Talk about flat, she have a horrible airport which a plane can slip when its landing! Or perhaps a plane will never land there!
*u know what i mean about the airport thing, yea, thats right...ma fei gei chiong lo!*
*gulp, dont dare to think much about it cause it's making me sick*
Anyway why cant she be nice? But maybe i think being nice are too much for her to do. Well, the truth is, 99.9999999999999% people from that college hates her!
*except other lecturers and workers over there as she is very good at SHOE POLISHING!*
She Fxxking accused me in copying work! Damn her alright? Talked things like plagiarisms or identical work and shit just fxxking annoys me!
She didnt question me about it and went straight to my agent and my dad through email!
Fxxk her! She sent me an email and i replied her but yet she sent me another copy of that letter to my house! I CAN FxxKING READ A-B-C 1-2-3 AND ENGLISH ALRIGHT? THATS LIKE DISCRIMINATION!
Sigh, that's ok for me cause i am used to it! But my poor baby was worrying sick about me and went completely down after she listened to my story.
She, my girl, keep on persuading me to sleep early as shes damn worried about me can die.
Baby i love you =3
Baby, although sometimes u may feel lonely or insecure, but i swear i am trying my best to fill up the gap between us.
Its hard to have a long distance relationship. But baby, you are doing it well and i am proud of you, and i am proud of myself cause i have found a considerate girlfriend who loves me like mad! <3
Bare this in mind ladies and gentlemen that true loves never die!
*Baby are you familiar with that sentence and can you recall that back?? =3
Ill be expecting you to answer me when i call kayyyyy? *it means that u read my blog* =P
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Hungry..
Its 2.25am now, and im hungryyyyy!!
lol, i ate my dinner, but im still hungry, why am i hungry? well, that i dont know, mayb i miss my junkfood..thats why~
hmm, i have this habit of, when im doing something on my desk, theres gonna be like M&M and the SMITHS CHIPS beside me so i can munch them at all times! WWEEE!!!! SIMPLY irresistable!!! =P *but thats the past when i, nick and denise do junkfood restock once a week*
i didnt lay my hands on junkfood since i came back from malaysia though.
wait.......
only once, thats when im in complete eccentric state that craving for it.
Anyway that china man helped me to solve this problem by giving me one of his fav's snack, THE SMITHS!
when i was munching chips, i thanked god for sending him to help me with that problem..LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyway he told me that he dont like junkfoods, but me...being persistent on teaching him how to eat...soon he became just like me, a snack addict!! WUAHAHAHA!
hey hey, look at the bright side, at least im teaching him not to be that boring kay?
-- finally --
hmm, i dont want to mention about my flight and my study plan because it was a mess
and im confused, so i seek for ma baby help~ =P
Thank you for everything baby~ <3
Just imagine the girl who tell me all the time that "SLEEPING IS ESSENTIAL, NO SLEEP NO KISS!" thingy hooked up with me whole night!!! weee! WORK THAT OUT YO! =D
Anyway baby...U spent your time talking with me whole night instead of sleeping, so imagine of THAT SACRIFICING ON ME!!!!! *im truly touched...LOLLL* <3
Anyway, i miss sushi, i want to eat sushi now...
I miss my parent, my gramp, my siblings, my mum's car *can be considered as mine*, my dad's car *never consider me driving it cuz my dad will kill me*, and last but not least, SHE who miss me twice as much as i miss HER...just love her! <3
Ops, 3.09am now, hmmm, well, if ma baby read this blog, she gonna kill me...sigh...
-- TO MA BABY -- <3
baby...
i am SOOOOO sorry that i didnt call because of insufficient credit.
SAYANG BACK KAY??????? =) <3 you!
-- END --
lol, i ate my dinner, but im still hungry, why am i hungry? well, that i dont know, mayb i miss my junkfood..thats why~
hmm, i have this habit of, when im doing something on my desk, theres gonna be like M&M and the SMITHS CHIPS beside me so i can munch them at all times! WWEEE!!!! SIMPLY irresistable!!! =P *but thats the past when i, nick and denise do junkfood restock once a week*
i didnt lay my hands on junkfood since i came back from malaysia though.
wait.......
only once, thats when im in complete eccentric state that craving for it.
Anyway that china man helped me to solve this problem by giving me one of his fav's snack, THE SMITHS!
when i was munching chips, i thanked god for sending him to help me with that problem..LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anyway he told me that he dont like junkfoods, but me...being persistent on teaching him how to eat...soon he became just like me, a snack addict!! WUAHAHAHA!
hey hey, look at the bright side, at least im teaching him not to be that boring kay?
-- finally --
hmm, i dont want to mention about my flight and my study plan because it was a mess
and im confused, so i seek for ma baby help~ =P
Thank you for everything baby~ <3
Just imagine the girl who tell me all the time that "SLEEPING IS ESSENTIAL, NO SLEEP NO KISS!" thingy hooked up with me whole night!!! weee! WORK THAT OUT YO! =D
Anyway baby...U spent your time talking with me whole night instead of sleeping, so imagine of THAT SACRIFICING ON ME!!!!! *im truly touched...LOLLL* <3
Anyway, i miss sushi, i want to eat sushi now...
I miss my parent, my gramp, my siblings, my mum's car *can be considered as mine*, my dad's car *never consider me driving it cuz my dad will kill me*, and last but not least, SHE who miss me twice as much as i miss HER...just love her! <3
Ops, 3.09am now, hmmm, well, if ma baby read this blog, she gonna kill me...sigh...
-- TO MA BABY -- <3
baby...
i am SOOOOO sorry that i didnt call because of insufficient credit.
SAYANG BACK KAY??????? =) <3 you!
-- END --
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